Perpetual Drafts of the Perpetually Daft

Again with the lists. Vignettes? Sad attempt at organization or style? 1. Both our boys love to pick up sticks and rocks when we are in forests or parks. They will hold on to their nature treasure until B or I  tell them to leave it behind. And they do, most of the time without protest. They get home and other than the few plants that are scattered around the house, they are completely separated from "nature." We prefer to keep nature in its natural home. But why should nature end when we close the door when it comes to play? (purposeful rhetorical philosophical question) 2. Last night I resolved to begin my resolution (why do I get the feeling this was one of last year's resolutions if I bothered to come up with some?) of actually completing a book. I forced myself (ugh, it shouldn't be that hard, wasn't I an avid reader before social media took over?) to complete a chapter of 2 books. One fiction, one non-fiction. I'll tell you about the non-fiction o...

Random thoughts that might take flight one day. 1. If I write them in list form, will it make it better? 2. They might know what they know. But they don’t know what they don’t know. 3. I find it worrisome that my level of focus when it comes to reading a physical book is nil 4. Social media really is addicting. I feel it. So I have anecdotal evidence, right? 5. What is this blog about? The answer is in its title. We are all works in progress and it is good not to think we know everything. What happens when the perpetual draft becomes a final draft? 6. This blog is just a platform for my procrastination, if we are being real. 7. Decision making would be easier if I didn't worry about my decision's effect on others. 8. Is it crazy to be contemplating such drastic changes at this point in my life? 9. 2018 will be a year of major transition. I can feel it. 10. I bought 3 Totoro pens today along with a plant themed 2018 planner. I tried putting all my schedules ...

I was wondering why I've been feeling so scatter-brained lately. Some might say to me sarcastically (but with love, I'm sure ;P) "just now?!" I basically work in three seemingly different organizations. Sometimes I feel like they contradict the other. One job is all about technology. The other is waaaaay on the opposite side of technology that it practically runs away from it. And the third kind of embraces both. I'm a special education technology teacher and school technology coordinator in one job. In another job I'm a guide of sorts to families and children to enjoy play in local nature. I like to think of myself in that role as a host of outdoor shenanigans. In the third, I help my husband run our very own toy company. Whew. That's why I'm so tired. That's why the house is in constant disarray. Sorry, Ma. But the kids are clean, clothed and fed, so there's that, haha. There is  one clear thread though, that connects them all: They all...

I am so sleepy right now. This is technically the fifth post but since my posts have been lacking in thoughtful content, maybe I'll hold off on sharing this until I get a better, more worthy post on here. Funny how I had so much to say and write when I was thinking up this blog in my head but now that I'm here, I'm dry. :( Love, Erna

So the last post was your quintessential procrastinators cry. Yea I eventually did what I had to do, sort of. But once again, as looked down upon as procrastination may be, I do believe that at least for me, it is a thought  process that I need to get through to work out the thing I needed to get done in a way that makes sense to me. Ugh this vagueness is annoying even me. Does this even make sense to anyone else but me? By the way, yes I’m aware and am cringing slightly at the run ons, incomplete sentences and grammar rules breaking happening here but HEY, this is the perpetual drafts blog and I’m proudly perpetually daft and also FOURTH post done!

It's not that I can't do it. I just don't want to. I really really don't want to do this. I think that's what procrastination comes down to. It's not that you're stuck. It's just that your inner subconscious (redundant phrasing?) just really doesn't want to do what you should be doing. And thus you type out nonsensical, vague-bookery. But hey, THIRD post, baby!!

I don't know where to start. (That sounds more dramatic than intended 😂) But, hey, second post, woohoo!

This is what happens when I'm supposed to be busy doing other things. Like leaving for an appointment 15 minutes ago. Filling out W-9s. Working on lesson plans. Buying christmas presents. Wrapping Christmas presents. Figuring out how we will pay for all the Christmas presents. Finding a topper for our Christmas tree 9 days before Christmas. Putting away the clothes. I could go on for pages of things I should be doing instead of this. And write right now I vow to update this blog regularly but in a week I know I will let this one fall by the wayside as I have in the past. To help me avoid that, I will promise instead to update at least weekly with a minimum of 5 words even if it is an excuse from the following list: I just don't have time today Too much to say, no time to write I can't think of a thing to say Today was too terrible to share Today was to incredible to share I want to live my life! I will not share this blog with the world until I have at least ...