Perpetual Drafts of the Perpetually Daft

Today was the second time since the start of the lockdown that I went to the grocery by myself.  Somehow going alone is worse than when I go with B. When will shopping feel normal again? It really does feel like a minefield. Although the cruelty in this is that the potential explosions are silent, undetectable for weeks. I didn't cry this time so that's a plus. N's birthday is coming up and I wanted to get a few things that I didn't necessarilly want B to have to get on top of his regular grocery list. They seem like frivolous things, cards, balloons, cake mix, and sprinkles - but important for me to make N feel special on his birthday. I mean sucks as it is being stuck at home, why shouldn't we at least attempt to go an extra mile? It's funny though, he did specify that he wanted to just have a "chill birthday." What the heck does that even mean? This time I had prepared myself a little bit more for the trip, as I felt my anxiety building the...

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So things mostly suck right now, but I'm buzzed on a Saturday afternoon on Day 48 so let me tell you a few of my favorite current things: Hard Pressed Cider DNice's live Instagram sets Questlove's live youTube streams Leslie Jordan's IG livestreams   hmm, I'm sensing a trend here. YouTube specials like  Take Me To the World   (Oh my gad, Ladies Who Lunch, amiright?!), the Parks and Recreation reunion special  and fun reunions like Crowded House and  The Goonies one. Anything Bon Appetit , but especially their home quarantine videos . Geeking about cooking and baking , especially with my boys. Our herb and vegetable garden with inspiration from friends and cool cats on youTube. Just in general, doing things we would not normally be doing or spending as much time doing because we aren't allowed to do much else. This time does suck but this Pause is definitely something that needed to happen. I just wish it didn't have to take s...

I know I'm not alone in doing things now that I probably would not be doing (at least as much) during typical times. Or like, you know, in the "Before Time." I've spent a few weeks now (not in consecutive days, I'm not completely insane or focused enough for that - ha!) mulling over pandesal recipes. I am comparing  4 recipes - one of which was recommended by a friend who posted her delicious looking pandesal on FB. I've watched numerous youTube videos about it, some on repeat. Who am I!? I'm treating this like some kind of research paper. I've not put this much effort in one before. I think. Of course this could just be another form of procrastination. Except in this case I'm procrastinating to keep from TURNING ON THE NEWS. I cannot. It's not like I would be doing this in the summer. I really don't think I would be spending this much time "preparing" to make pandesal. For one thing, I did attempt to make pandesal ...